In the quiet places in our hearts, there often is a deep ache, many find themselves grappling with shadows that are not solely of the mind but of the spirit. In this post, I invite you to explore the profound relationship between depression, the loss of identity, and the disconnection from one's soul's purpose—particularly through the lens of Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder (PMDD). Living with PMDD is like experiencing identity theft once a month.

PMDD, a severe form of premenstrual syndrome, affects not just the body and mind, but deeply influences the spirit as well. It is in this intense luteal phase that many individuals report feeling like a veil is lifted, revealing the raw, unmet needs and unspoken truths of their lives. What if we viewed these challenging times as messages from our soul, urging us to return to our true path?

The Loss of Identity and Its Role in Depression

Identity is the essence of our being. It is how we see ourselves and how we relate to the world. When one's identity is clear and aligned with one's values and purpose, there exists a harmony within. However, when there is a disconnection—when the person you are on the outside does not match the person you feel you are on the inside—a profound disharmony ensues. This dissonance can lead to depression, especially if it persists over time.

In the context of PMDD, your sensitivity to the hormonal fluctuations can exacerbate this feeling of being "out of sync" with oneself. During the luteal phase, as emotions intensify, the contrast between who you are in your essence and who you find yourself being in the world can become starkly apparent. This realization, while painful, is also a powerful invitation from your higher self to seek alignment.

Soul’s Purpose: The Beacon in the Dark

Every soul comes into this world with a purpose—a unique gift or message to share, a specific journey of growth and contribution. When you live in alignment with this purpose, life flows more effortlessly, filled with joy and fulfillment. Conversely, straying from this path can result in a deep existential sorrow, often manifesting as depression. This sorrow is not merely emotional but spiritual, a mourning for the un-lived life, the unexpressed self.

For those with PMDD, the cyclical plunge into emotional and psychological depths can feel like a recurring loss of self. Yet, herein also lies a cyclical opportunity for revelation and profound self-discovery. Each month, you are given a chance to confront what is not working, what is not true to your spirit, and what you are called to change.

The Healing Journey: Reclaiming Your Identity and Purpose

Healing and reclaiming your identity and purpose requires courage and deep inner work. It begins with listening—truly listening—to the messages your emotions and body are sending you. Here are a few steps to guide you on this sacred journey:

1. Self-Reflection: Use the luteal phase as a time for reflection. Journal about the feelings and thoughts that arise. What aspects of your life feel misaligned? What are your deepest desires that remain unfulfilled? What has caused this sadness?

2. Seek Meaning: Look beyond the surface symptoms and seek deeper meanings. What might your soul be trying to communicate through your PMDD symptoms? How can these insights guide you to greater authenticity in your life?

3. Spiritual Practices: Engage in practices that connect you to your inner self and the divine. Meditation, yoga, prayer, and nature walks can be profoundly grounding and enlightening, helping you to reconnect with your spiritual essence.

4. Therapeutic Support: Sometimes, the journey back to oneself can be daunting and complex. Working with a therapist, especially one who understands the spiritual dimensions of healing, can provide invaluable guidance and support.

5. Community Connection: You are not alone. Connecting with others who share similar experiences can provide comfort and insight. Consider joining PMDD support groups or holistic spiritual circles that resonate with your journey. Join my support group HERE.

Embracing Your Whole Self

Remember that the path to healing is not about becoming someone new, but about becoming more truly yourself. It's about shedding the layers of imposed identity and societal expectations, and embracing the whole, beautiful, and imperfectly perfect being you are.

As you navigate the challenges of PMDD, let each cycle remind you not of your brokenness, but of your unyielding strength and the unspoken promise of renewal. Each phase of your cycle holds a lesson, each symptom a message, and each moment of despair a potential spark for your rebirth into greater alignment with your soul's deepest calling.

In love and light, you are guided. Listen, and you shall find your way back to the essence of who you are, and perhaps, discover the joy of living a life imbued with purpose and true to your highest self.

To learn more about my work, find me at www.rachellynnfox.com